Stupid Monkey

I’m just going to put it out there folks, it’s been a rough day.

I’d love to tell you that I never have one of those days. But I do. And yes, I will share.

This morning I woke up ak-ok. Peeking through my front door window I noticed our resident stray cat sleeping on one of our stray chairs. I thought, how nice he feels safe there.

I kept our house cat inside and let him sleep. And he slept…and slept. I even checked to see if he was breathing. He was. Later, once he got up, my husband & I watched in horror as he limped away. He is very skittish & we didn’t want to frighten or startle him.

This is when my head started rolling….Dirty monkey brain begins with the inner monologue. What can I do? What should I do? How can I help? Should I help? I don’t want to scare him but I want to feed him, water him, give him a safe space. It didn’t stop for quite some time.

You see, suffering animals is one of my triggers. It’s a sensitivity. I admit it.

But the truth I’ve discovered is that everyone and everything has come into the time, space and circumstances they have for reason.

This doesn’t mean we can’t help where we are able. Just that we are not able to control every external circumstance.

Everyone has their triggers that send them into a tailspin. Even when we have faith. Even when we have hope.

The pandemic has created circumstances where those triggers may be very close to the surface right now. One small thing might cause us to go into meltdown mode. Seemingly without reason. And that is OK.

So when these moments arrive I remind myself that my vibe determines my reality. I suggest taking a few deep breaths, phoning a friend, and asking for the guidance that lives within to guide you to the next right thing. In my case, it was creating a space for the little guy overnight.

Do what you can in the moment, then released control of the outcome. Recognizing and honoring any residual feelings. And trying to refrain from telling ourselves stories about what we are or are not doing enough of.

Sometimes the best we can do is enough. And you are all enough my dear ones. You are doing the very best you can in this moment and I, quite frankly, applaud all of your efforts. Your positivity, light and keeping the faith do not go unnoticed. You are divine. Shine on light chasers.